Dosboy's Bits and Bytes

I'm sitting here really wanting a smoke (ok, that was 10 minutes ago). I thought to myself "Self, who could you call that would help you combat this feeling" and the response was SparklyD. I called. I got voicemail. I left a message. I went downstairs. I bought smokes. I came back up. I'm typing this message. Admittedly, I may still get a call. Or, the attitude may be "WTF? Why should I care?". Which is valid. And which leads me to a domino effect (or maybe just random realizations) which I feel like blogging. But first, I'm gonna have a smoke.

Holy Universe, Batman! As I was typing that last sentence, my phone rang. It was SparklyD returning my call. But I was already committed, and there was no turning back. I had my smoke. I cracked. I'm a quitter quitter. Whatever. Suffice it to say that I'm still on the quitting track, I just (obviously) need assistance. And drinking all night with Julian doesn't help. So I might have one or two more tonight, but that's still an improvement. Damn, I can justify anything. But I still hate smoking. Bad. Smoking = bad.

Anyway, yesterday's count = 1/2. Today's count (so far) = 1. Continuing to keep track here under the "Smoking" tag (I realize blogger calls them "labels", but I prefer tag, so be it).

As a total aside, I once tried linking to DuMaurier, but due to Canada's smoking/advertising laws they apparently don't have a website. All I can find is this wikipedia entry. Apparently they don't have a website. For the record, I smoke Extra Light, Regular. Ultra Light is like sucking air, and King Size is just too much effort.

Or at least I'd like to be. I smoked too much over the weekend, had one (well, 1/2 of one) cigarette this morning, then threw the remainder of the pack out. So this time it's for real. Last time I threw out the remainder of a pack I stopped smoking for a few years. Hopefully history will repeat itself. Gregg suggested I blog about it to make it all public and official like. So I am doing just that. This post feels very disjointed. No flow. I think I need a smoke ;)